At the end of each year I spend time looking back at the year that is coming to a close. I revisit each month to remember all the gifts and memories I was given throughout the year. When I’m done, I take an honest look at what I want to keep in the year going forward and what I’d like to learn from and then change. Finally, I set out the outcomes I wish to achieve over the coming year and choose a word that represents the outcomes I’m striving for. It’s a bit of a process but it is so worth it at the end of the day. The process fills me with gratitude and a sense of calm going into a new year.
Last year my word was GROWTH. I hired a personal coach and worked with him for the entire year. I can’t fully explain how much I learned but here are the key points that I’ll take forward with me into 2019:
I have a pretty deep seeded fear of confrontation. It makes me anxious and over the years has caused me to lock myself up in a few areas of my life. I panic in arguments and withdraw when someone confronts me personally. This insight led to my second big learning point of 2018:
I have a very masculine personality (in a get things done, no nonsense, put things in boxes kind of way). I can build up walls like no body’s business and tend not to be an emotional person. The end result is that I’m not so comfortable with being vulnerable and emotional. This trait comes in handy in my work environment when I have to be the coach and be objective but not so much in other areas.
Lastly, I have learned or maybe confirmed that I have many gifts to share and I am absolutely enough exactly as I am (and so are you!). Another course, another certification, perfectly clean home, and being perfect in general doesn’t make me better. I help people heal from the inside and out and that is my purpose and my gift to the world – flaws and all.
Knowing what I know about myself now, my word for 2019 is AUTHENTICITY!
Previously, to avoid confrontation, I have been known to bite my tongue, especially in relation to health and wellness topics. Through my journey in 2018 I started to speak my mind more. I know that in doing so I may distance myself from some people but also fully realize that the kinds of people I truly want in my life will surround me. This is already happening with the new blog posts I have been sharing. I truly love the feedback and to know that those of you that are responding are also meant to be part of my tribe/inner circle.
In being authentic you will also start to see more of these posts from me. I know that some of you won’t agree with them and that is perfectly okay as we can’t agree with everyone all the time. I am confident that the genuine information I share will resonate with most of you. I am extremely passionate about bringing limitless joy to others through quality movement and nutrition.
Do you have a word for 2019? Please share it in the comments below!